Nidhi • निधि

as they say “कभी कभी, किसी को बस गले लगा लेने से सब मुश्किलें आसान सी नजर आती हैं. बिना कुछ बताए, बिना कुछ जताए, अनकही बातें…बस कह दी जाती हैं” …!!

the fact that,

sometimes all you need is
a simple “hug” from special one.

no solutions
no conversations
no communications

just a simple hug
which comforts you in a way
you wanted to be comforted
no asking for problems
no comments on what’s going wrong in life

just closing your eyes
and
feeling that silence in between
feeling that comfort in between
like you have craved for this only
life you have deprived of this only

world feels lighter
everything feels easier

just that person
their shoulders
and that hug

when you can lean on them
without hesitation
when you can depend on them
without thinking twice

and this is
most beautiful form of intimacy
most amazing form of love
which can be felt only
no words can describe this emotion
as if your all problems are being shared
without saying anything
your all wrong goings are being understood
without opening up

no questions
no answers
just peaceful moments
just silent moments
and
sometimes
all you need is this silence
when so much of noise around
sometimes
all you need is this comfortable hug
when you have so much of strom inside …!!

the contradiction between your
“heart” and your”mind”
is really something else.

mind has so many logics
for a situation that it won’t happen
but
heart makes a number of excuses
just for that situation to be true.

mind already knows everything
but
your heart is not ready to accept that.

mind saves your heart from getting hurt
but
your heart is always ready to be hurt
every single time
even after knowing everything so clearly

like mind clearly tells that
you should not have expectations
from someone
but
heart, at the end comes to the point
of having hopes
from the same one

mind knows exactly
you are going to be sad
you are going to be hurt
but
heart does not even care
after understanding everything

mind tells you that
they don’t even think about you
once in whole day
and
heart is making scenarios
about the same person
whole day

mind accepts that they dont even care
about your existence
your presence
your words
or
your time
but
heart ?
it is ready to have numerous delusions
to be happy
although it’s all fake

who is going to tell this silly organ
that your function is to pump the blood only
not interfering with other things
not interfering with emotions
and
not giving false hopes
which is going to ruin you in future.

most silliest part of it is that
it never learns from past experience
from past hurts
from past failures
and
from past sadness …!!!

once sonu nigam said “तुझसे तालुक जो नही कुछ मेरा, क्यूँ तू लगे है अपनों सा. जानूँ ना मैं तुझमें मेरा हिस्सा है क्या…..पर अजनबी अपना मुझे तू लगा”

the fact that,

इस अजनबी सी दुनिया में
इन अजनबियों के बीच
ना जाने क्यूं
पर
तू अपना सा लगता है

ये आवाज़
ये चेहरा
तेरी हंसी
तेरा होना
तेरा हर बात पे लड़ना
तेरा हर बात पे
मुझे चिढ़ाना

जैसे बहुत पहले से
जानता है ये दिल तुझे
कोई अनकहा सा रिश्ता हो
तेरा मेरा
कोई इतनी जल्दी भी
अपना तो नही लगता
जैसे आज ना मिला हो तू
अपनी सी लगने वाली
ये आवाज़
अपनी सी लगने वाली
ये सूरत

क्यूंकि जंचता नही कोई
इस दिल को
इतनी ही देर में
जितना समय
एक इंसान दूसरे इंसान को
जानने में निकाल देता
जितना समय
एक इंसान दूसरे इंसान को
समझने और पहचानने में
निकाल देता

वो पहली बार
तेरा नाम जहन में आना
वो पहली बार तेरी आवाज़ से
रूबरू होना
वो पहली बार
तेरा सामने दिखना
और
वो पहली बार
बिना तेरे बारे में कुछ जाने
ये पहचान जाना
की ये वही नाम है
ये वही शक्श है

एक मामूली सा
संयोग तो नही ये
एक मामूली सी
स्थिति तो नही ये
कुछ तो होगा
रिश्ता पहले से
कुछ तो होगा
तेरा मेरा मिलना पहले से

i hope you are waiting
for the soulmate of your life
like i am waiting patiently

i hope you are keeping
all the promises
like i am doing patiently

i hope you think about me
more often
like i do think about you
most of the time

that imagination is enough
to make me in smiles
that imagination is enough
to think that
i will get someone special
and someone better
who is mine
only mine
and does not belong to anyone else
or everyone else
the thing I dislike most
is liking someone
who is liked by everyone
the thing I dislike most is
having someone
who belongs to others
call it obsession
call it domination
or
call it stupidity
but
i hope in this matter
destiny is not going to ditch me
i hope in this matter
i’ll get the genuinely best.

तू शामिल है मेरे
हर लम्हे के खयालातों में
तू शामिल है मेरे
हर एक मुस्कुराहट में
मेरी उदासी का सबब
तेरा मेरे ना साथ होना है
तू मेरे सुबह की
भीनी खुशबू सा है
वो शाम के सूरज के ढलने पर
महसूस होने वाले
इक सुकून सा है
खुशी का जरिया है तू मेरे
उम्मीद का दरिया है तू मेरे
तेरे पास होने से
सारी मुश्किलें आसान सी है
तेरे साथ होने से
इक अनकही हिम्मत सी है

ये बात

एक तुझे छोड़कर
इस पूरी दुनिया को पता है…!!!

as SRK once said in veer zara,

“तुम थे या ख़ुशबू हवाओं में थी, तुम थे या रंग सारी दिशाओं में थे. तुम थे मिले या मिली थी मंजिलें, तुम थे के था जादू भरा कोई समां. दो पल रुका खवाबों का कारवां और फिर चल दिए तुम कहाँ हम कहाँ दो पल की थी ये दिलों की दास्ताँ और फिर चल दिए तुम कहाँ हम कहाँ”

the fact,

that you don’t even know how much a person matters to you,
until and unless the moment comes
when you are going to get on your own separate ways.
when you are going to meet them without knowing the next time.

at that moment
all those memories and flashbacks revols in your subconscious mind
which once used to irritate you
which once used to make you angry
and
which once used to make you feel restless

at that moment
you get to know the value of that person
at that moment you get to know the importance of those memories
that you could live those moment more happily and peacefully
instead of fighting or getting annoyed
it’s not that you are not going to meet them again

but

it won’t be that frequently
and it does not take much time to forget those things or people
who are not frequent in life
this feeling is full of emptiness
this feeling is full of voidness
leaving something important behind
leaving someone valuable behind
you literally can’t hold time
for even a second if you want
and
that’s the strange part of life.

people say

“nazar is real”

they are not wrong though.
if you have something good in life
be it your favourite person, your dreams,
something else which you have got after so many struggles,
just keep that to yourself.
it’s your stupidity to think
that others are going to be happy
in your happiness
that others are going to celebrate
your victories
in the crowd if one person is happy for your smile
then majority of that population is
sending negative vibes to you
that why it’s you ….not them.
if something good happens with you
just keep that to yourself
if you have your loved ones
protect them at any cost
bragging about goodness in life
is not going to be liked by others in today’s world.
no one is going to cherish
your achivements or success
no one is going to enjoy
seeing you happy
and it’s your delusion
that sharing your happiness is going to make others happy too
no one wants to see you doing better in life than yesterday
other than your family and few closed ones
this world is full of fakeness
this world is full of double faced ones
protect your smiles
protect your loved ones
protect your success
just be a lowkey person
keep a small group of people
but
keep original ones
announce less and be secretive about your own life
people ruin less if they know less
don’t be a open book
which anyone can read
don’t be a open desire
which everyone can have.

once zakir khan said,

“अगर आज आपको कोई शर्ट पसंद है और वो आपको चाहिए, तो ये दुनिया इतनी बुरी हो चुकी है की आज आपको ये शर्ट बिल्कुल नही मिलने देगी, और जब तक आपको ये शर्ट मिलेगी, इसकी अहमियत खतम हो चुकी हो. फिर वो मिल भी जाए तो उसकी कोई कीमत नहीं रहेगी. चीज़े अगर सही वक्त पर ना मिली तो वो सोने में लपेट कर भी मिलें तो किसी काम की नहीं”

this world is becoming
heartless day by day.
pulling others, from doing good
pushing others, to their limits
and
then blaming them
for reacting in same way
playing victim
after making others reaching to a threshold point
people can’t see others happy
they can’t see others doing better in life
lying
politics
bitching
mindgames
as if they have come to live forever
as if they own the world and not going to leave this place one day
that stupidity of thought
that they are going to change
others destiny
that they are going to snatch
others destiny

as they say

“कुछ लोगों के साथ बस वक्त बिताने से…
सब ठीक हो जाता है”

some people are real “stress buster”
no matter how much of your day is ruined,
no matter how much, your mind is unhappy,
or
you are feeling low,
spending time with them,
is cure of everything.
it’s not that they do something magical
it’s not that they do something special
it’s just their presence
that makes everything look good
that makes everything look easier
when nothing is going easy, when nothing is going smooth,
few people are there
to make you forget whatever
making you unhappy
to make you forget
whatever, making you tensed
and
they are like real blessings
in all chaos of this life
they are like peace
in all noise of this life
they are like solutions
to all problems of this life
calmness of all anxiety.

magical process
magical people…!!

“आदत”

अगर किसी अच्छे काम की लगे
तो मजबूती बन जाती है आपकी
किसी बुरे काम की लगे
तो मजबूरी बन जाती है आपकी
और
अगर किसी इंसान की लगे
तो कमजोरी बन जाती है आपकी
एक लम्हे से कुछ वक्त
कुछ वक्त से घंटों
और
घंटे से पूरा दिन
बातें,
मुलाकातें,
खयालात,
कभी कभी किसी खास वजह से
और
ज्यादातर बिना किसी वजहात के
विडंबना देखिए कि जब तक आपको ये समझ मे आता है
की आपको बाज़ दफा किसी की आदत सी लग रही
तब तक आप उस इंसान के आदती बन चुके होते हो
तक तक आप उस काम के आदती बन चुके होते हो
अब ये आदत अच्छी हो या बुरी
झेलना आपको ही है
अगर इसे खतम किया जाए
तो तकलीफ आपको होनी है
अगर इसे जारी रखा जाए
तो दिल आपका टूटना है
क्योंकि समय और इंसान
एक जैसे कभी नहीं रहने वाले
दोनो तरफ से
नुकसान आपका है
दोनो तरफ से घाटे का सौदा
आपका है