Nidhi • निधि

as they say,

” माना की हम यार नहीं, लो तय है कि प्यार नहीं.”

may be,
in future, when we’ll meet,
we are going to behave as strangers
may be,
in future, when we’ll meet,
we are going to ignore each others
but
the fact that,
you are a treasure
i have got once
you are that memory
i have missed once
you are the love
i have cherished once
you are that happiness
i celebrated once
you are the poetry
i have written once
you are that person
i have craved once
you are the moment
i have waited once
you are that call log
i have kept in favorites for days
always know that
wherever you are
always feel that
wherever you are
even when we are strangers
even when we are not talking to each other
even when we are not going to be same as in past
the span of our journey
might be short
but all those fights, arguments,
and
even though you are never going to accept
but your hidden care, ways of making feel important
are always going to be there in this journey
in anger,
i may show that i hate you
but
the fact that i can’t even express to you is
i love you….
and
i miss you the most at present moment.
wishing for your well being
praying for your goodness

शायद मुझे पहले से ही मालूम था
इस कहानी का अंत
लेकिन उम्मीद चीज ही ऐसी है
हर बढ़ते कदम के साथ लगा
कि आगे जाया जा सकता है
हर बीते वक्त के साथ लगा
कि अंत को बदला भी जा सकता है
और फिर समझ आया..…उम्मीद का क्या है
उम्मीदें झूठी भी होती है

there is “nothing” left in this story
but
i hope,
someday, you remember about this
i hope,
someday….
you remember about me
and think
that there was someone,
who loved you selflessly
who cared for you selflessly
who was mad about your name only
who thought about you only
i hope,
you remember
all those bickering moments
where she fought with you,
but
in the very next moment
she was ready to give up on her ego
i hope,
when you try to blame her,
for her faults,
you remember
all those seconds
when she had chosen you
against all odds
you remember
those time, when she tried to be with you
you might think
she was crazy
she was spontaneously egoistic
she was hyper
she was always available
but
i hope
when you think all of that,
may you also think those good moments too
you spent with her
may you also remember those time,
you were with her……and only her.

अब धीरे धीरे
तुमसे बात ना करने की आदत हो रही है
अब धीरे धीरे
तुम्हे याद ना करने की आदत हो रही है
अब धीरे धीरे
फोन की स्क्रीन पर
तुम्हारा नाम ना खोजने की
आदत हो रही है
अब धीरे धीरे
तुम्हारा प्रोफ़ाइल ना देखना भी आसान हो रहा
अब ठीक ठाक सी नींद आ जाती है
अब धीरे धीरे
तुम उन ख्वाबों की दुनिया से भी
ओझिल हो रहे
अब धीरे धीरे
भगवान से, तुम्हे ना मांगना
रोजाना का हो रहा
अब धीरे धीरे
तुम्हारा नाम देखकर
मिलने वाली खुशी गायब सी हो रही है
अब धीरे धीरे
तुम्हारे बारे में सोचना
खतम सा हो रहा है
अब मेरी आँखें नहीं ढूंढती
तुम्हारा वजूद कहीं पे
अब तुम्हारे खास होने की
उम्मीद भी जा रही
अब धीरे धीरे
लोगों से तुम्हारा जिक्र भी
ना करने की आदत हो रही
और
अब धीरे धीरे
किसी के तुम्हारा जिक्र करने पर
बातें बदलने की आदत हो रही
अब धीरे धीरे
तुम्हारी यादें भी भूलती सी जा रही हैं
दिन हफ्ते और महीने
और
फिर धीरे धीरे,
तुमसे पहले और तुमसे बाद वाली
अपनी जिन्दगी कैसी थी
इस बात की आदत हो रही
अब धीरे धीरे
सब कुछ ठीक सा हो रहा
अब धीरे धीरे,
आंसू कम से आ रहे
अब धीरे धीरे
चेहरे की मुस्कान, उन लम्हों को हल्का सी कर रही
अब धीरे धीरे
तुम, दुनिया की भीड़ का हिस्सा बन रहे
अब धीरे धीरे
तुम खास से आम बन रहे

she always wanted  comfort
in someone
in something
that was only hers
to be claimed
to be told
to be belonged
to be together
then, now and forever.

खुदगर्ज़ सी इस जिंदगी में ,
खुद को तुम पर खर्च करना…. अच्छा लगता है !!

the biggest reason of sufferings
with human beings are
we always focus on that single person’s
attention or love,
who always ignores us,
even after so many efforts
but
we literally ignore
all those people
and
all those love we get in this process
from many people.
today,
when I felt that,
people remembering your name,
caring for you,
having full attention
only on you,
checking whether you are okay or not
asking whether you are happy or not
they feel your absence
they have fixed position for your name in their hearts
and
the thought that
it was not any validation you needed
to feel loved
to feel great
you are amazing
and
always focus on those people more
who love you more
instead of those people,
to whom you love more
always chose those people,
who chose you,
instead of those,
who are never going to chose you
you’ll be happy
you’ll be satisfied
you’ll be contented
you’ll be fulfilled
so whenever you are in zone of sadness
that, those people don’t love you back,
whom you do love
at that vary moment
just remember all your blessings
and countless people,
who are always there to love you
even more than you love them.
you are loved
you are worthy
you are being missed
you are being celebrated
never forget that.
never let anyone make you feel otherwise.

जब कुछ भी समझ ना आए
जब सब कुछ धुंधला नजर आए
जब आगे का रास्ता धूमिल सा परखाए
उस लम्हे में
खुद से बस इतनी गुजारिश करना
कि एक कदम आगे की ओर
खुद को बस संभाले रहने की ताकत
अंधेरे से निकलने की जद्दोजहद
बिना हारे
बिना हार माने
बस अगले राह तक पहुंचने की हिम्मत
और फिर
रास्ते बन ही जाते हैं
मोड़ तक का सफर
तय हो ही जाता है।

the moment when you realise the fact that you don’t want that person anymore, who once used to be your biggest desire.

as they say ……

“वो वक्त गुजर गया जब तेरी हसरत थी हमें,
अब तू खुदा भी बन जाए
तो हम सजदा नहीं करेंगे”

when someone said “तू सच है या अफसाना, जो भी है बहुत खूब है” they really meant it.

days like these,
are the moments we live for.
and
you don’t know,
gradually,
you are addicted to someone’s company
to the extent that
you can spend more and more time with them.